Mothers Day

Okay, I have to admit I didn't really know what to think of the first Mother's Day that I actually get to celebrate for myself. I know that the last 10 months have been a roller coaster with not just me being a mother and a wife but our living conditions, and separation. It has been a crazy adventure. I have to say it hasn't been boring. So for Mother's Day we didn't do anything overly special we had some newly found friends and their families over for a nice dinner and movie watching, and we went to church where I received some wonderful flowers that I was able to set up in the kitchen in a vase that I have had ever since we have been married. And the rest of the day was filled with watching Lily and Rockey play together. Rockey and Lily sat with each other through all of sacramenting on Sunday, which was so nice to see their relationship grow but also I had a little break to enjoy the Spirit of the meeting. So, how do I feel about being a mother is really what I want to know about myself right now. Well lets look a picture or two and then I will tell you my feelings as they present themselves to me.

Here is Lily at Easter what I wonderful sweet gift she is.

Here we are about two months ago when she started to give kisses to everyone. 


So with only those two pictures, I can honestly say that I love Lily more than life itself. I love her for all the things she reminds me to be every day. She makes me love and admire my husband more and more daily as well. I do get frustrated sometimes because of the things that I might want to do, but all she has to do is smile at me and then I totally forget that I am thinking, and focus on her. During the day when it is just me and her, I can't help to always be looking at her. I am afraid I might miss something of her development, but I also look at her because I can't believe sometimes that she is ours. I personally can't believe or feel that I have desired such a wonderful little girl as she is. As you can see I am growing along with Lily, and I see things in a whole new way. I am grateful for all the other mothers out there that have inspired me and have taught me something that has helped me in my relationship with Lily and Rockey. I do have to do a shout out to a few. My mom of course, my mother-in-law, my Sis Aubz, Kira, Nat, JacMac, Emily, Felicia Neilson. There are so many others out there that have taught me things as well but I feel it is really important to let these few know that they have effected me in a way that I can't express to clearly in words, but I want to let them know that I love them dearly. Also I wanted to remember my Maw Maw, my Granny Hutto. These two Grandmothers that I knew very closely. Now that they are not with us, I am so very thankful for their love, their close attention that they gave me over the years and their example of love and motherhood they showed towards me and all my family members. Well needless to say this is probably the longest blog I have ever wrote, but I wanted everyone to know just how much I love being a mother and a wife.